quatro de mayo

050410. I keep thinking about this year’s astrological and numerological forecast. 2010. Apparently, it’s what they call a “warrior year” … an “all or nothing” year … a “destiny” year.

From what I understand (which isn’t very much with regard to numerology), the number 10 is very powerful. It’s the year when everything you’ve been sowing for the past nine years is finally harvested. All that energy (good and bad) that you’ve been putting into the Universe comes back at you, tenfold. So it’s supposed to be a pretty intense year.

And if these first four months are any indication … “they” seem to be right.

I also understand that this year is a year when the Universe is going to put the choice for your destiny in front of you one last time … This is it. You can either choose to live your destiny, or not. But it’s not going to present itself again. So it seems like a good time to choose your destiny. No?

I guess I’m doing a lot of thinking about this because a few things have happened this past week that bubble it all up.

Firstly, I finished my Level One Kundalini Yoga Teacher Training with an incredible weekend of yoga, meditation and lecture. It started (as all the KYTT weekends did) on Friday at 6 pm and went through Sunday at 7. And I had one of those weekends when sleep just eluded me. In the 54 hours from Friday until Sunday, I slept about 6 hours. And I had to teach my practicum in front of one of my teachers and my study group. And I had to turn in 40 pages of homework. And I had to be “present” for all the yoga, meditation and lectures.

(To be honest, I’m not sure how I got through it … but I did … and it was incredible … and now I’m a Kundalini Yoga Teacher!)

Secondly, I went into the office yesterday morning to meet with The Boss … and five years, two movies, one documentary, countless projects on the precipice of being made and a lot of life blood … it’s all coming to a close. I’ve given my notice. I’m not going to work on the latest movie. I’m going to pick up all my stuff and all the LO’s stuff, and we’re going to move to Montana with the Cowboy.

And as I first wrote in my first blog … things are going to fall away that don’t fit into the picture. I’m still writing (blog, book and soon-to-write-script). I’m still practicing yoga (more than ever before). I’m spending more time with and being more present for the LO (my favorite parts of the day). I’m cooking more (even making bread – with the Cowboy’s recipe).

And away we go …

I’m committing to being the Yogini Cowgirl … for life.